Talk about missed connections; I’ve had two in the past month. That’s not a particularly good track record. Not to mention that I think I may have isolated some friends with my recent erratic and overly un-reined-in behavior. No wonder, with the amount I’ve been going out and drinking lately, my feelings would be hurt by me too. Granted, my friends have been just as crazy as I have been with the partying, but when we are sober, we all sorta pretend that things aren’t weird. Pretty bad, I know. We talk to each other as if nothing happened when we were tipsy/buzzed/drunk, and as if there are no tensions to speak of.

The really bad part is that the gang’s not really stopping … it’s only Monday, but enough people have sent around emails already that we have a party/club lined up every night beginning Tuesday night. I didn’t even party this hard in college. Maybe we are consciously seeking for the alcohol-induced loss of inhibitions so that we can be a bit more honest with each other.

Unrelated, but worth noting: I had two different people ask me today if a friend of mine is gay. He’s not, but how do you tell if a guy is gay anyways? I was at a gay friend’s birthday party Sunday night. It was attended by mostly men, who were all so unfairly attractive that I was even convinced that god did indeed spend a little more time on them. Given the crowd, I was extremely confused as to who was fair game, and who wasn’t. Frustrating at best.

When it comes down to it, these situations are lose-lose to me anyways, no matter how I look at it. The gay guys make a losing situation; they are definitely not fair game. The not gay ones … well, I usually find out they’re not gay by seeing them being totally into another girl, by which point, the situation is also totally completely lost. *sigh*