My first weekend in Boston in what seems like forever, and it is already jam packed. I have maybe an hour right now to sit home in my pajamas, relax, watch tv, lay in bed, read a chapter in a book I’ve been trying to finish all summer. An hour, and that’s it. Then I’m out an about. I really want to just say “screw it” to everything, call it a night, and watch a movie. By myself.

Students/undergrads are already moving in this weekend. Next weekend grad orientation starts. I thought I had one more weekend, but no, next weekend is when everything comes crashing down. It will also mark the last weekend in August, which is pretty damn scary considering that I have made zero progress on my thesis proposal since a month ago.

This whole summer just flew by. I’ve done a lot, and in the end, it’s been a ton of fun, but none of it has been very relaxing. I really just want one weekend to myself, with no phones, no emails, no party/birthday celebration obligations. I want a weekend when I don’t have to really talk to people, when i can sit around, do nothing, dance on the carpet in my socks to stupid music, and just have ME time.

I’ve not been working much all this summer, so really I’ve had a vacation all summer. But all the “vacation” has been so exhausting that I feel like I need a vacation from vacation. I am feeling claustrophobic and suffocated, and I feel like I need a vacation where I can just be by myself for a while.