I’m staring at my computer, and I can’t feel anything except an extreme sense of emptiness. Something my parents said to me over Thanksgiving break finally sunk in tonight and broke my heart all over again. While home, they off-handed said that they have had all of my “wedding money” set aside now for a few months. I guess as parents of a daughter, you never quite know when to start saving for her wedding, but you don’t set aside that lump sum until you’re pretty sure she’s getting married soon. My parents really did think that I was going to get married soon.

So what happened? He claims personality differences. I claim religion. We both claim religion, but he still stands by personality differences. I claim forever together as the reason to overlook those differences; he claims those differences prevent us from considering forever together. Two and a half years, and we still claim religion. We were fools to think that it would ever be different.

Weeks, months have passed. Goodbyes have been said. The tears have all been shed. Now why the emptiness all of a sudden again?